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Final Fantasy - That's When The Audience Died

This song hurts me a little. The last time I listened to this, my heart stirred at those early violin notes, and trying to follow the song closely, thumped-thumped-thumped till it was pushing along in rhythm, beating in time with each quick little string pluck. I couldn't sit still, I had to get up and move, before the blood shoving around inside me decided it couldn't be held. I fled my home, I broke into a sweat, I ran around city streets trying to find exactly what had my heart so panicked.
I ran around, trying to find what it was I had lost. My mind clouded over with grief and loneliness, I could not speak, I could barely stand still, and when I did, the world seemed to spin away from me. My heart was determined to kill me, rather than go another minute without the single glowing thing it had glimpsed, and all I wanted to do was forget, forget, forget. So, I did. I did, but some weeks later, I missed that sense of near-miss, that knowing and recognising what I want, and grasping for it... Skirting along the edge of what we can handle for the feeling, playing Icarus with each other.
That's how this became my favourite song, and that's what I think of when I hear him sing: don't let the audience die.

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